Amber Larkin

a year later

2007-05-21T03:21:12Z

its been a year now......... cant say its gotten any easier. they say the first year is the hardest. boy they arent kidding. I love you dad.

One Year Ago...........

2007-05-15T18:18:42Z

My sister was turning 16. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISSA!
Lindsay was about to graduate HS.
My dad was still alive.
I still had my sanity.
I knew what my future plan was.
I was happy.
Was working two jobs but loving it.
Wasn't thinking i would ever live in Ohio again.
I was healthy.

Man if things haven't changed alot in a year. It has been such a rough year. So hard with out my dad. I went to him for everything. I feel like im not the same person anymore. I've gone out of my mind without him. I'm so lost. I keep running around in circles. I hope things start to get better. This has been the roughest year of my life. People I thought who would be greatful for the things I did and my father did for them just stab me in the back. You think they would be more human than that apparently not. I feel like I've gone insane. I dont know who i am anymore. I dont know what i want to do with my life. I'm packing up all my things to move back home. I need my family and they need me. Hopefully being back in my own surroundings will help me along. Not to mention I need to be close to family for my health reasons cause the treatments will start again soon. Not a day goes by that i dont think of him and wish i could have just one more day. I cant believe its almost been a year. I remember it like yesterday. I remember what i was doing, what i was wearing, who i was with. Everything. I keep doing everything i can to help my family. He was the glue that held it together now its all falling on my shoulders. So everyone go and hug your dad today and tell them how much they mean to you cause you never know what will happen or when they will be taken away

RIP Daddy 5-20-06
She knows her daddy won't be back anymore
She drags her feet across the floor
Trying hold back time to keep him holding on
And she says
Daddy Daddy don't leave
I'll do anything to keep you
Right here with Me
Can't you see how much I need you

almost 4 months..........

2006-09-18T07:13:09Z

since my dad passed away. if feels like yesterday. everyday i think about him and what happened. for the longest time i felt so guilty. i mean i could have been there. i should have been there. thats what i do. i'm trained to save lives. it tears me up that i wasnt there to save my dads. it hasn't gotten any easier. everyday i still cry and wish i could have that time back for just an instant. my dad was everything to me and my whole family. it hasnt been the same without him. i work my tail off to try and help my mom in every way i can. i want nothing more than for my sisters to have the life i grew up with..... i know my mom cant provide all that. its so hard waking up everyday not able to call my dad. i wish i could talk to him again and get his advice again. its so hard without him. i feel so lost. i dont act the same and keep running in endless circles. i dont know what to do with anything let alone myself. i'm so greatful for a dad who gave me everything mine did. he would have given me the world if he could. he was the most hardworking man i know and he did it all for his girls. he would do anything for anyone if within his reach. i just want to go back so much. back to the time when he was here.

No words I write can ever say
How much I miss you every day.
As time goes by, the loneliness grows;
How I miss you, nobody knows!
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name,
But all I have are memories
And photos in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow,
No one sees me weep,
But the love I have for you
Is in my heart to keep.
I've never stopped loving you
I'm sure I never will;
Deep inside my heart,
You are with me still.
Heartaches in this world are many
But mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches as I whisper low,
"I need you and I miss you so."
The things we feel so deeply
Are often the hardest to say,
But I just can't keep quiet any more,
So I'll tell you anyway.
There is a place in my heart
That no one else can fill;
I love you so, Dad,
And I always will.
litt did we know that morning
That God would call your name.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone,
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.
You left us beautiful memories,
Your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you,
You are always by our side.
Our family chain is broken
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

just a favor

2006-05-23T16:15:13Z

if anyone could please keep todays paper (may 23) for my family we would appreciate it my dads obituary is in it. thanks

how far is heaven when can i go to see my daddy he's there i know

2006-05-22T14:35:43Z

Saturday May 20, 2006. That day will be forever embedded in my head as one of the worst days of my life. My dad passed away. Its so hard. I never in my wildest dreams thought it would happen like this. my dad was too strong to die from a heart attack. he wasnt meant to die, not like this. his body fought for 6 hours. i didnt even get to talk to him that day i was too busy working as usual. any one who even knew me in the slightest knew how much my dad meant to me and much he affected who i was and who i was going to be. i havent slept or ate since it happened. i cant even grasp it. i miss him so much. it hurts even more that my sisters didnt get to know him like i did. he doesnt get to watch them grow up and help mold who they are. my dad did so much for so many people never asking for anything in return. he was having a good day planting flowers in the garden with my sisters. no one saw it coming. no one could have expected it. i wish i could have been there. i wish i could have helped. my dad was the rock in our family. i dont know what i am going to do now i went to him for everything. i hadnt seen my dad in 5 months. that hurts me so much. i wish i could have seen him. 6 days from watching my sister graduate 5 days earlier he celebrated my other sisters sweet 16. he had so much to live for and so much still to do. it happened so so suddenly. i walk into his house and i cant even stop crying. i'm so greatful he didnt die alone. my mom was there. my dad was so afraid of something happening while he was alone. he was such a great dad i only wish it wouldnt have taken 1000 miles of distance to bring us together. my dad will be forever missed and loved. i'm so greatful to have him as my dad.

randomness

2005-04-20T03:09:23Z

ok so i figured i might as well update a little some people actually might read this. SOOOO i took the MCAT and did very very well UCLA or University of miami here i come. I graduate in May of 06 hopefully. as long as they dont change any of my major classes times i will be ok but they have a BAD habit of clashing classes that i need that are only offered 1 a year. i am a work a holic now. i work not 1 not 2 but 3 jobs!!!! then ontop of 18 credit hours what am i thinking i mean seriously. this saturday i am auditioning for the real world!!!!! whoop whoop for that i am crazy excited. i tried to suck sarah to this ploy but she had to work. I moved intoa new apartment. its really nice the area is fabulous. a bit too many british and scottish men but eh what ya gonna do. it is sooooo hot here. i have been laying out and its like 80 degrees down here. school is almost over and icant wait. i dont get to go home any this summer due to the 3 jobs but i am banking some major cash so its all good. well enough for now

~Amber*

sadder than i ever imagined!

2005-01-21T21:02:31Z

so today was the day... They left......... The last of my friends that i had down here are gone...... I went to the farwell ceremony it was one of the saddest things i have ever had to go through. Everyone please keep the 3rd ID in your hearts they are going back to iraq for the 2nd deployment...

I'm soaked in rain and everything around me breaks like glass. I wonder why such a time in my life has to be so blood drenched. Where is all of this going? As I head down this path alone... seeking... what? Seeking sanity, comfort, family that is so not here. War. War is taking my friends. Taking my second half which is tearing my heart to shreds. I'm stuck with no explanation. Where is my best friend? I'm carrying my whole family on my back as everyone else continues with their lives, all around me. Normal. Happy. Am I strong enough, Lord? To handle this obstacle you’ve given? I don't want to be Job. I don't want my life and family taken away. He'll come back. Wont he? I cannot sleep, eat, or do anything but worry. I need someone here, but whom? Emptiness claims my soul and I'm dragging my feet through the mud. Half of those soldiers that I talked to... will they return? Or will their letters to me just stop abruptly? All these families, crying soldiers grasping onto their oblivious children for the last time ... That moment will be cemented in my mind for eternity. Why??? Why does this have to happen? Why is my comfort being torn away? Why do I keep dreading the next moment... what I will see next. All I can do is stare at this blank screen now. Everything that has happened so fast the past couple of weeks have actually sunk in, and for once, I'm a wreck. No words of comfort can solve this. I need love so much... but it's not there. I can't do this anymore... I just can't...

OHHHH GGGGRRRR

2004-12-07T16:49:37Z

so here i am working 2 jobs everyday of the week. on top of it i have 18 credit hours and 18 signed up for next semester. I work my butt of to have th grades that i do. I was really hoping for a 4.0 this semester. i studied my butt off did everything i was suppose to. just to give you a small example my last paper was 32pgs and the one i am doing now is 56 and counting. i studied for every test and earned an A on everyone. This one class imaprticular is really hard there are no true false no mulitple choice no fill in the blanks. you must know the info and know it well. for our final it was a test over all our previous tests. He told us which pages of the previous test would be on the final. i studied my hiney off i mean over 4 hours studing. well the test came and i was breezing threw then wam bam thank you maam there were 4 pages that he didnt tell us about an di couldnt remember cause i spent so much time studing what i thought i was suppose to. needless to say i am veryupset and if i dont get a 4.0 due to that class where everything else ias did was an a i will not be a happy girl. I am struggling to stay on top of everyhting and i think i deserve it. as soon as i walked out i started cring and i called my dad. I think i am going to talk to the prof on tomorrow after i have calmed down. i will gladly retake it again now tha ti know to study the other pages. In other news EVERYONE should read men are from mars women are from venus. my really good friend bought it for me and its awesome. its give you so much insight and help with the opposite sex. well enough complaing for now lata

~amber*

College and then some........

2004-09-24T13:16:23Z

So I'm back in good ole GA. I havent updated in forever. This summer was pretty good i went to the bahamas which is always nice. Then my bladder and kidneys decided to hate me forever. so i go to the doc like seriosuly every other week for infections its no fun! Classes started which are awesome! I love my school! Vanessa came down for a little but then went back home. so here i am now with lauren. she's my roomie and she awesome i love her to pieces. I went out to dinner with sarah 2 nights ago i got to see her apartment and she got to see mine. Im so glad she's down here. She loves SCAD but she says its sooooo challenging more so than her old school. Life is pretty good right now I have AWESOME friends here, a gorgeous and sweet bf, and school is going well. now if only my health would straighten itself out i would be a happy girl. I have 2 jobs down here and i am a nanny for 2 little kids and then working at ruby tuesdays. I love my jobs. anyone who would like to come and visit is more than welcome to stay with me. its still like in the 90's here. the south is awesome minus the fact we get hurricane threats like every other week. they say there is another one headed our way. well theres my update for the month

~Amber*

is it suppose to look like that........

2004-04-09T16:32:56Z

ok so i havent updateed in forever so i figured might as well. im now working 2 jobs i still work in the careeer services but now i am also a nanny. i dfound that very fitting for me. i love college life. i have been to daytona 2 so far and it is awesome!! HEATHER IS COMING!!! yay for friends coming to visit. i am so excited i miss her and i dont htink GA is ready for this. alot of my friends are at NTC its no good. i miss my friends from ohio i cant wait till next year when a bunch of them ar ehere! it will be the best ever. soo i am really sun burnt due to really warm weather and florida. sunless tanner is looking better and better! i miss my mom! and my litle sisters. so my neighbior and i are big dorks and since we dont have family here we went out and bought each other easter baskets and we are decorating eggs and hiding em on campus!! oh yeh i am a camp counsler in the summer! its in PA. i cant stay in one spot long enough to hold my breath. i cant wait i am teahing kids tennis and ceramics then i am the bunk counsler for the lord help me 16 year old girls where there are also 16 year old boys at the camp. im so nervous they wont listen to me cause i am so close to their age. i guess we shall see. well enough update for now more later
~Amber*

I have to put my hands where!?!?!

2003-11-12T19:36:16Z

SOoooo here i sit in georgia all by my lonesome. the countdown has begun 10 days till i come home!! i am soooo excited Sat i think i am doing stuff with vanessa, sun heather, moday is sarah and then the resst of the week is play by ear. i cant wait i am sooooo excited. i have been talking to my sister alot mroe now. its good we are growing a better relatiosnhip. so yesterday i was driving with my friend and BAM her tire goes flat so here are 2 girls on the highway tring to change a tire. but yay for nice tow truck guy helpig us. i have to register for my next semester classes. lol when i come home for xmas break i am making my sister fo on a double date with me. hahhahahaha talk about fun. we are going to look at xmas lights then ice skating then to drink coco. i cant wait for xmmas i love that time of the year. everyone bussling to get gifts and the l9ights the snow everything is just great. the tree. wonderful simply wonderful. it ddoenst feel liek winter here though its 82 degrees right now.. sat our dorm is making a thanksgiving dinner. it will be fun. i have the job of turke y so lord help us. it will turn out good though i canreally cook like a real girl!ok wedll enough for now more later

*muah*
~Amber

Amazing Family

2003-11-06T20:34:51Z

gosh i love my family they are the best in the world! especially my 2 fav cousins katie and nate. nate just wrote me this and made my entire week!

Dedicated to the Fav Cous of Mine in the family and the reasons why.

There are many reasons why Amber is my fav:
#1: She has introduced me to a wonderful girl who I hope to be able to be
with in the future! [She] is so close to perfect and Amber picked her out.
Without me even telling her what I like.

#2: We are close in age and share similar experiences and stresses in life.
Opposite sex, college, and others. Even though she goes to college in GA!

#3: We both have at least one crazy sis, and when you have that, you have to
console in each other to keep each sane!

#4: We worked together. KI may suck, but for awhile it was a family bonding
area.

#5: She is a good girl. "I am not a ho, I just like boys!"

#6: When I need some advice, she is willing to give it, and I am always
willing and able to help her out when she needs it!

#7: We share the tightest family on earth! I don't care what you have to say
about how good your family is. NO CONTEST! And I will beat you down if you
think you do have a better fam.

#8: She's pretty and smart. Yes we are family, and I am not a pedorass! I
can say that without being it! She is also extremely smart. HECK, she is on
her way to med school!

#9: UNPREDICTABLE! In a day in age where people tend to be repititious and
form daily habits, not this cousin, TRUST ME, if you know her, she is
capable of anything and everything! But BOO on those late night phone calls
after work trying to get me to go clubbin when I work at 6am the next
mornin!

#10: We are both hott, sexy people that everyone desires to be around! It
must run in family, and we gotta keep the bond strong! FO SHIZZY! They don't
get better than the Larkins!

gosh i love cousins. so i get to come home really soon and i could not be mroe excited i cant wait. i get to see my friends like sarah and vanessa and ofcourse the head hooch herself heather. my mom and dad and sisters and dog and cousins, i get to sleep in my house and do things iwth my friends. ia m more than ready to go home! mark clark is coming to visit me too. gosh i love that boy hes the greatest. school is going amazing. i am way smarter than i thought. its a good day lollipop. ok enough for now i must work some more!

word from the wise.....

2003-10-20T18:02:25Z

how to stay young

1. throw out all essential numbers. This includes age weight and height. Let the doctor worry about those that is why you pay em!
2. Keep only cheerful friends the grouches keep you down.
3. keep learning. learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. never let the brain idle. "an idle mind is the devils workshop." and the devils name is alzheimers
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. laugh often, long and loud. Laugh till ou have to gasp for breath.
6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life is ourselves. be alive while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you love. whether its family, friends, pets, plants, whatever. your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health. if it is good, preserve it. if it is unstable, improve it. if it is beyond hat you can improve get help.
9. Do not take guilt trips. take a trip to the mall, next county, friends house, but not to where te guilt is.
10 Tell the people you love that you love them at every oppertunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the numer of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away.

SOOOOO here i am at work yet once again. doing a whole lot of nothin! its easy and i am getting paid might as well do it. so halloween is coming up real soon. cant wait i dont know what i am dressing up as but they are having a party down here so itll be fun. so i went out on thurs night and some guy tried to take my id thinking it was a credit card or something. then my hero of the day an army guy named josh got it back for me. he was nice. MY AUNT COMES DOWN IN 4 DAYS!!! ahhhh talk about excitemnt. she loves me. i ahve our whole weekend planed. man i am losing so much sleep down here! i never sleep like i get an average of like 3-4 hours a night. i am working 2 jobs soon to be 3 going to school and doing extra curriculas with the school. i think i am going to overheat or somthing. hahahhahah to all you people in ohio it is like 70 some degrees here and GORGEOUS. i went to the beach yesterday with loren and his friend it was a good time. i saw a real life jelly fish and i ran. i swear eery male down here is in the army. well atleast the ones i have met. not that i'm complaing or something. my littlest sister is so cute she had to talk to me yesterday when i called and keep me updated on everything! i love her to death shes a doll. i miss my dog kody! fat little ashmatic thing i love him! i am going to cook on wed for my friendds and loren andhis roomate cause they dont get any real cooking. any suggestions on waht to make would be grealty appreciated. then thrus i am cleaning. sheesh i am beocming little suzy homemaker but in a dorm its nuts. i cook and clean and do laudry and grocery shop just like a real girl. ok well i guess enough for now in closeing a smile peom thing

Smile for your.
Smiling is infectious, you catch it like the flu,
When soemone smiled at me today i started smiling too,
I passed around the corner and someone saw my grin,
when he smiled i realized, i'd passed it on to him
I thought about that smile i realised its worth
a single smile just like mine could pass around the earth
so if you feel a smile begin, dont leave it undetected
lets start and epidemic quick and get the world infected! :)

i thought it was fitting i smile alot. more than anyone i know!

germany is over the ocean right?!

2003-10-17T17:36:45Z

so here i sit at work as bored as ever i have my SHAPE magzines and the tunes going. talk about easy. so sarah is coming to visit me at the end of the year and i wot have to drive all the way by myself. that is awesome. so things are somewhat cleared up with the roomates. hopefully things will get better if not oh well its only like a few more months then out with them and onto bigger better REAL apartments. so midterms came. i did well. not as well as i hoped but good. i got all A's and a B in math. not sure how long my math grade will stay that high. i see it plumetting quickly. best advice for hs students. PAY ATTENTION IN YOUR MATH. college math is really really hard. and they go super fast. i talked to my sister for the first time since i left. well lindsay that is. the others call me and miss me. but i hadnt talked to her. it was nice. she just needs to keep her head on track and hang with her good friends like anna and natalie. she claims she doesnt miss me. she didnt cry when i left. what is up with that!? even anna did. im not feeling the love. so i get tocome home in like a month. i cant wait but i think it will be kinda weird. and i'm not an orphan my family still has a bed in my room. my aunt is coming to visit me next fri. talk abpout excitement i cant wait i love her! m dad is going to come visit me too in january. he really does care. my relationship with him has grown alot since i left. its a good thing cause we never ever use to talk and now i do like once a week. i talked to vanessa the other night it was nice. i talk to sarah regularly. WHERE IS HEATHER? i havent spoken to her in forever! i think i should all her this weekend. i went out dancing with one of my very few female friends rachel last night. it was a blast minus the guy taking my ids and the army guy having to get em back for me. speaking of army guys my friend loren who is in the army. i met him here and he is soooo super nice and great one of my best friends down here . yeh he got orders for germany for 3 years and for half of it he will be in iraq. i cried when i found out. i will miss him so much. hes great and i probably wotn get to see him again. hes from kansas and when he gets back from germany his term is over and i will have graduated pre-med and off to med school. it makes me sad. life sucks sometimes. some of my friends are in the navy and htey had some dress up ceremony thing and i went. they looked soooo good. i was drooling. i need to call sarh and heather and my sister gain we didnt get to finish our convo cause it was her bed time. HAHAHAHA not having a bed time rocks! i am almost certified for alot of stuff. by semesteer change i will be. wow i have been rambling alot. i guess that is enough fo now. lata

ITS ABOUT TO GET UGLY!

2003-10-14T20:14:35Z

UGH i cant wait to move out of this dorm! My roomates are realyl pushing my buttons. its ok to have your bf over sometimes but ALL the time. it wouldnt bother me if he was respectful and nice but hes not! And i am paying rent to live here not him. i want him to go back to where he came from!! both of em! so my one roomate got busted for drugs..... shes no longer here that leaves 2. they both have bfs here all the time!! and i am sick of it they both ahve their own dorms they are paying for go to them. they are sooooo mean to me and i dont deserve it! i am a very nice person but they aer mean. i clean all the time even after them.... i am the only one that works...... i dont do drugs let alone in the dorm....... and i actually go to class........ then they tell me if i dont like it then i can move out!! i am the one paying for it i shouldnt have to. its just not a good situation. other than that i LOVE IT here ok enough for now LATA

OH MY GOSH!!

2003-10-02T05:37:27Z

I AM IN THE BEST MOOD!! so i talked to my 2 best friends tonight! sarah and heather. man i miss them both like crazy mad alot! so sarah hates chicago. i feel so bad for her. BUT she might come to scad next yr! which is soo incredibly awesome cause that is like not even 30min from me. and heather might move here too after her beauty school thing!! i would be in heavan i would have people that actually KNOW me. i hope sarah transfers she would be sooo much happier here there are people her own age and stuff to do and its cultured and i know she would love it. ahh well i just had to update on that so more later about my college life! nite ntie

hey hey what do ya say

2003-09-07T18:22:12Z

so i am in school. classes are classes. i need to ge a job so bad. i called sarah and she seems to really be enjoying her dorm and chicago. i wish her nothing but the best. everyone else talks about coming home on some weekends an such i dont even have the option. i'm in hard core colege life. its cool though i am really growing alot stonger from it. being on my own makes me appreciate me mom so much more. i ahve to clean like every week do dishes get upset when others dont do there part go grocery shopping spend more money than i have. gosh colege is peachy! i cant wait till the fall down here like halloween. this place will be a blast cause savannah is th emost haunted city in the nation. well i guess that is enough for now. more later i should go entertain the guests.

~Amber*

you could be a pimp an dyou dont even realize it!

2003-08-17T11:03:59Z

So here i am in college. class starts tomorrow and i will be kicking myself in the head for this. It is now 7am and i have yet to go to bed. i havent been to bed earlier than 5am all week and then i dont get up till 4 the next day. its insane. I miss my friends so very much. Especially heather shes my girl. but i am realyl happy for her and mike. and to all the others going off to college best of luck to you all. i have mad a ton of friends but they arent the same. i miss my old friends who new about me and who i am and such. its not the same. oh well what ya gonna do. i wasnt getting friend sick until i was getting ready t go outdancing wth the boys. then it all hit me like this just isnt the same and i sat and cried and ddnt end up going. i dont know its odd. i have a phone number and such now here it is
cell is still 5132920506
room is 9129618272
and now my adress letters and such would be greatly appreciated and helpp this little friend sickness thing write me and i will write back and maybe even send stuff from good ole georgia

Amber Larkin
AASU compass point
one university drive, 8208a
savannah, Georgia
31419

georgia!

2003-08-12T20:13:17Z

well i am not officially a college student. i am at my college and i absoulutely love it! class starts on monday that is insane!! i really want to do well and succeed and as long as i keep my mind on track i will do fine! heather has been so awesome this whole time!! we have met so man people and she has chilled with me the whole time and helped me move in. i will really miss her when she ahs to go home and i am alone! UGH the suckh thing of college being soooo far away from everyone! i miss people already but its cool. my family is super sweet for staying with me the whole time too! they are super cool. my roomies are so nice. you should see our dorm it is soooooooo awesome. it is the bomb. we have everything you could ever need and it is so trndy and cute! anyone is welcome to come see it! well enough on my college update i will jeeo you all updated. till then

~Amber*

my final goodbye tear

2003-08-07T10:05:10Z

my days in ohio are very numbered. It is now 6am and in exactly 24 hrs i will be leaving this town that i have grown to know and, as much as i hate to admit, love. I am going to savannah georgia. A state where i know no one. I have never been more scared in my life. This is the largest challenge i have ever had to face. I am leaving my family, my friends, my everything to go to a state that i know nothing about. I have learned more things this summer than ever before. Once enemies can now become your best friend. Little sisters are growing up quicker than you ever imagined. First impressions are easily changed but never forgotten. Dont be afraid to open up to people, You may end up losing your chance. White castles and meijers can be cool if with the right people. Always say your pleases and thank yous. NEVER dl aim+. Dont believe me ask my sister! Spend time and open up to your parents before its to late. ALways keep your morals and practice what you preach. Finally i will give some shout outs

HEATHER- Oh my gosh! i have grown so close to you this summer From pimpin it in black beauty. To just drivin around and becoming regulars at white castle, and you staying the night at my house everynight. No matter what i have had a blast. You've become one of my best friends and i will definently miss you when i am in georgia by myself. You better keep in touch. love ya

Sarah- you are my partner in crime till the end. I have more memories with you than anyone. Student directing, fashion shows, weightlifting with googly eyed men, our wig! there are just to many to name. You have been such a great friend i will truly miss you.

Linsay my sister- What can i say your my little sis. Stay out of trouble!! dont give into peer pressure and remember who your true friends are and stick with them they will be there for you no matter what. Watch the lying you will always get caught. trust me i know!

To everyone i will miss you all more than you will ever know! Thanks for everything

~Amber*

EVERYONE

2003-06-06T22:08:40Z

DO NOT FORGET MY GRADUATION IS TOMORROW AT MY HOUSE!! EVERYONE WELCOME. IT IS FROM 1-whenver PLEASE COME

~Amber

i get pleasure out of others pain

2003-05-19T16:52:06Z

wow i havent updated in a really long time so i figured hey what they heck! Well prom was amazing i had the best time ever. the spa was definently awesome if i could do it all over agian i would in a heartbeat. my dress was wonderful i looked nice. my date was really great. all in all it was fabulous. wellnow it is about time to graduate. i cant wait. i have so many big plans for myself and to go to college. WHOOP WHOO! i am going on a cruise to the bahamas i cant wait! yay for keywest cococay and nasseau. sarah lesley kami and i are going. i cant wait i really hope tjat sarah can go! hmmm i wander where heather is today she wasnt here fri either. well i guess thats enough for time. oh yeh i have orientation for college in GEORGIA on june 28 yay for growing up!!!

~Amber*

yippy!!!!!!

2003-04-04T18:45:58Z

so everything is really coming together. i went and had a meetign with the air national guard. that went really well! i want to go my mom does want me to go and my dad doesnt. i dont know what i do if i join i will have everything paid for and still go to college where i planned on attending. i think i will wait for my fafsa crap and then see how much i still have to pay for college and decide from there. so prom is all together finally. we have a group, limo, and dinner reservations. i am so excited it is going to be a blast. now all i need is to get my dress is and get accesories and ballet slippers and i will be set. heather and i made our appointments at the spa. we are way pumped and the people are way happy to have us go there it will be awesome. so today afters chool sarha nd i are going to get buff (aka going to the club) then we are going to get pierced and tattoed. well i am jsut getting piderced she is gettign both. i am way scared i hate needles. wish me luck.. well i guess i better get working on this senior project thing.

~Amber*

from am to pm!

2003-03-17T17:42:24Z

Well life is good now.l They let mne start working at steak nshake all i do is sit there and dress the sandwiches btu hey i get paid mighty well for it. So i went to 3 walmart 3 times yesterday in search of a video camera. AND THEY DIDNT HAVE THE ONE I WANTED. but thank you mark sooo much for taking me to all of them . You'r the best!! the fashion show is going so wonderful i am way excited!!! i cant wait for it all it is comign togehtr this yr alot better than last yr. EVERYONE HAS TO COME!!! during shcool 4th block or after school at 7. oh yeh its on the 19th. i went to my orientation for my security job. I cant wait. i gto to meet som e new security people and they are all way cool. i cant wait to work with my cousin itll be alot of fun. we have big plans. i paid my insurance today and tomorrow i have interviews with the newspapers WHOOP WHOO. yay for publicity. so wed i am going with sarah to do the thing where we get even more buff and look at the nice lookinbg boys that work there. I am so glad it is warming up i love the nice weather. I wish i could drive agian but hopefully maybe next tues. keep your fingers crossed. it would be so nice to drive with all my windows down and sunroof open with loud music going. darn on being broke. well i guess thats enough for now

~Amber*

YAY

2003-03-12T01:45:02Z

i am way excited!! the prom fashion show is next wed. I cant wait it is coming along well. ticket sales are did very well for the first day!! I went prom dress shopping and i ordered my dress ITS A TIFFANY. i absolutely love it. it looks really good on me. i cant wait for it to come in. here is the link to the dress but its in blue tell me what you think thedress

whoo hoo i cant wait prom is going to be wonderful. i cant wait for the day at the spa! ya for all of it!